I posted over on my new blog.  Getting back my sassy

TTFN,
Pez

Over there

I posted over on my new blog. You can click on that link to read it if you want.

TTFN,
Pez

Pictures

Sorry the first two look green tinted.  We need a new camera.  The green chair seems to be Irish Dancers new favorite place to sleep.  hehehehe.

Long post

This week Mini Pez started swim lessons.  She had some earlier in the summer and the teacher was so impressed with how quickly she was getting it that she offered me a space in the class that started this week.  There are so many great qualities to Mini Pez but this one is definitely my favorite.  She is such an encourager, not by me prompting her to be.  She just is all on her own.  When she is in class if another kid is having a hard time she is always right there to help them, hold their hand or give them a hug.  It is amazing to watch and makes me realize I need to be more of an encourager to her.  I love her so much, she is just so amazing and as my mom's friend calls her "An Old Soul."  I agree.  She has the most infectious laugh it makes you start laughing no matter what mood you are in.  She turns 5 in 3 months.  I am not ready for that.  My baby turns 5.  YIKES!  She got her shots for public school on Friday.  I prepped her for the fact that they are going to poke her finger and get some blood to check her iron level.  She begged me not to let them take her blood.  Poor Mini Pez.  She was brave and did not scream.  So we went and got our nails done.  A nice Mani/Ped made it all better. 

Irish Dancer is just getting bigger everyday.  She is still very serious, but she does on occasion smile and laugh.  I will post pictures below.  She just wants to be held.  Her eyes are still blue, but the tinge of Mr. Pez brown is coming in.  In true Mr. Pez fashion her hair is also turning from jet black to blonde.  It is a lighter brown right now.  Still stands straight up in the faux hawk.  At this point I can't imagine her without it.  I did brush it down after her bath the other day.  It is long enough that it stayed down.  I ended up trying to get it up.  I did not like it down. 

I won a drawing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I follow some craft/sewing bloggers.  Leah at Sew Spoiled hosted one for Janey Mac.  I won!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I was going to get something for the girls room.  I went and looked in their room and realized that the place we live in now, there is no wall space to put something up.  I have a big open space on the wall with the staircase, I think I am going to do something there instead.  I always tell Mini Pez and Irish Dancer "I love you up to the moon, I love you as big as the sky."  It is from a song by Kim Hill called Up to the Moon. There is a vinyl art one called Love you to the moon and back.  The picture does not come up on my computer so I am going to email them and ask if they can send me something with a picture of it. If it looks good I am going to get that.  After that I am not sure I am going to have to look at the website and find something.  I was in shock when I realized I was reading my NAME! 

I have discovered this website called Pinterest.  It is really cool.  Way better than Google Reader Starring method.  I just need to figure out why I can't drag the little pinning link to my tool bar.  It is a virtual pin board.  You can "pin" ideas, recipes anything you find on the web you can pin there under different "boards" that you make and when you want that one thing you can find it.  It is really cool.  Plus you hook up with your friends and you can see all the stuff they are "pinning" and if you like something you can repin it to your board.  Sounds confusing when I am writing it out.  But go over and check it out.  You have to fill out this little form thing and then they will invite you to join within a few days.  Or, if you want I can invite you I think.  My comments don't post unless I approve them so you can leave your email address and if it will let me invite you I will.  I just double checked and I can invite friends so you can leave your email address in a comment and I will invite you and not post that comment. 

So this will be one of the last posts on this blog.  I am ready to start blogging about my crafting and sew adventures.  I forgot to take pictures of a buttercup bag that I just made for a bridal shower.  It was not a good one.  I tried to put a zipper in it, bad idea.  My hem was all OVER THE PLACE!  I lost my zipper foot and it was not easy to do without it.  The bride seemed to like it and so did everyone else.  I am now going to make a Hobo Bag for my friend S.  This brings me to the reality that I really am ready to go forward.  I hope you will follow me over there.  I have started setting it up.  I have all of the coupon, craft/sewing and IF bloggers that I follow.  I am going to past this over there also.  I am going to get some pictures up for the banner soon.  I have to figure out how to make a series of picture to put up there. 

I hope you are all having a good weekend.

TTFN,
Pez

Weird day

Yesterday was just a weird day.  I am glad I will only go through it once. 

It was 3 years ago that we lost the twins.  I did not think about them that much.  I told Mr. Pez that night I can't imagine my life with the twins.  I can't imagine my life without Irish Dancer.  In an ideal world I would have all three of them.  At this point though, I would not give up Irish Dancer to get my twins. 

I feel guilty for not thinking about them; for not wanting to give up Irish Dancer to get them back.  It makes me feel like a bad mom to them all over again. 

It was just a strange day.

TTFN,
Pez

I wonder

There are several blogs that I followed, but they have just stopped blogging.   One was pregnant and I wonder what happened to her and her baby.  Another one had two losses and was moving to another state, she just stopped also.  There are several others just like that. 

I hope they are well. 

I am working on my sewing and making some stuff.  I have made a top and I am working on some more.  I am going to post pictures of them on my other blog.  I am going to move over to this blog.  I hope you will follow me there.  I will post about life and the sewing or craft that I am doing.  I need to get it set up. 

I am ready to move on.  I have grieved all I can grieve.  I need to say good bye to my angels.  It sounds weird, but I feel like I need to say goodbye and move forward.  Maybe it is because I gave birth to them and never saw them.  I am not good with things that are left with no closure.  That is what I feel is left with the twins.  I struggle with this though.  I already feel like I have betrayed them in so many ways.  In reality I know I will never forget them, but I feel like saying goodbye will lessen my connection with them.  My head knows that is not the truth, but the heart; well that is always a different issue. 

That is about it for me. 

TTFN,
Pez

Beautiful Sacrifice

There is a song that I heard for the first time the Sunday after I had Irish Dancer.  It is called "Beautiful Sacrifice."  There is a line in it that says "What a beautiful sacrifice Love has made."  I realize they are referring to Jesus dying on the cross.  I can't help but equate it on some level to my angels.  They sacrificed so that the Irish Dancer could be here with us.  What mission does she have that is so important? 

TTFN,
Pez